La supplica

 Non importa quanto le cose mi addolorano

Non berrò mai un'altra goccia
Una vita di dolore e agonia
Ma uscirò comunque in cima
Cuore infranto e morto sei volte
Ho scritto le cose in parole e rime
Eppure ti rifiuti di sentire quelle cose
Mentre prego la tua guardia di abbassare
Quindi vivi con le scelte che hai fatto
E la scatola che hai costruito per me
Prima o poi vedrai la verità
Che ti ho implorato di vedere.
Sì, io sono l'uomo e tu il bambino
Ginocchio sbucciato e contuso
Quando finalmente me ne sarò andato
tutto ciò che avrai sono le mie parole
E finalmente sarò liberato.

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The Plea

 

The Wishbones Trilogy and Escaping The Despondent Sea 

are available on Amazon Kindle Unlimited. See Goodreads for the reviews!

No matter how much things grieve me

I’ll never drink another drop

A life of pain and agony

But I’ll still come out on top

Shattered heart and dead six times

I’ve written things out in words and rhyme

Yet you refuse to hear those things

While I beg your guard to drop

So live with the choices you have made

And the box you built for me

Sooner or later you’ll see the truth

That I begged for you to see.

Yes, I’m the man and your the child

Skinned and bruised up knee

When I’m finally gone

all you’ll have are my words

And I will finally be set free.

Clear Vision

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I know I'm not a nice guy,

I've seen it in my dreams,

Fighting you off oh this enslavement,

Brainwashed, silent screams,

Your lovers know your secrets,

They find out when they sleep

An unwashed mind is well in tune,

Your failures are well seen,

They may never tell you,

They look deep into your eyes and smile,

Time reveals all things- all things you'll see,

All your life's bullshit..in a pile.

My Queen

 

I treat her like a Queen

in return, she treats me like a King.
She makes mostly all of the money,
and I do all of the homemaking.
I take pride when I'm cooking,
Fold and Iron what she wears,
And I never want for anything,
she always more than shares.
Not one thing I ever need
does she refuse to buy,
I never ask for one damn thing
Yes, I'm that type of guy.
The money that I have I've earned
but it doesn't add up to much,
yet priceless is the love I give
in each and every touch.
She takes away all of the pain
handed to me by the world,
I am her King because she's my Queen
who's allowed me in her world.

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Dear Zachery

 

Hello Zachery Thank you for connecting via phone, it was very good getting to talk with you. Thank you for the $, and the jpay stamps. You are a very interesting person, your insight/views are on point. So often it is impossible, as you allude to, in finding anyone with conversation of substance. In here, it sickens me to see my own kind befriend and associate with the others. I will not break bread with them or engage in conversation with them. Plus it helps that I detest sports and that is all they know. Do not know if your family will ever come around. Seems like that ship has sailed. Your young life was riddled with horrible things, then your adult life with the wife leaving during your time of need, that was messed up too. The daughters and son may come to their senses, hopefully while you are still able to share conversations with them. It seems like life there is layed back and somewhat peaceful. You have a good woman, a loyal dog, your guitar, your ability to write, youthful looks, no body fat, you have your hair (so many guys go bald at early ages) and you have so much inner strength. Over 500 days sobriety, that is a huge accomplishment. I reached a point where it was more run to look ahead and wonder just how far I could go without indulging in drink/drugs, and eventually I found that I was not even thinking of those vices, instead enjoying the new feelings of being a different/improved/clearer mindset. Money saved was a blessing also. Even when it came to prescribed medications, I did not even want to take those because they made me feel like I was cheating on myself/ my sobriety. Having a clear mind is indeed more of a blessing than anything that alters my thought process. It took decades to realize that I had allowed those vices to become more important to me than my love of family or friends, and my actions did not consider my neighbors, or the community. I had become a monster dressed in blue jeans. Looking back at the destruction I left in my wake, saddens me and makes me regret, but we can not change the past. Learning from bad choices, striving to never repeat those bad choices, growing, maturing, all things we must do. I am impressed and proud of the in you have become. You survived so much for a reason. If I can ever be of any help or a shoulder to bounce ideas off of, I am here. Thank you for everything. Your emails are always welcome. Best to you.....Jim

Racism, and the undeniable history of mankind.

 

Politics is within the government oganizations, and as constituents, we are allowed by rights to participate.

The #RedScare is the fear of communism, which is the people living and working together under the embodiment of the governing bodies. The word, in itself, was used as propaganda to destroy the people and the communites from being united in any way. As for #racism- #society as a mass/whole is #Racist. The peoples of various colors gather accordingly among themselves AND the banks help them to do that by influencing people where they can live per their income- always playing games with the taxable and market value. I know all of these things, THAT is why I am Captain Mad Zack!

You can see these things very clearly within the prison systems, which were used as a study to control the masses. Until the day (that will never come) when there is only one race, racism will always be, as it has always been throughout history. So, suing someone for racism is actually a rediculous thing to file a suit over. I HATE american cheese! That makes me a #cheesist and the creator of #cheesism. What it is, is ME fighting Racism in it's face.

Have a great day, and consider separating yourself from the masses. #madzackradio #madzack #americanrebel

Escaping The Despondent Sea : The Ghost

Escaping The Despondent Sea : The Ghost:   When I leave for the shadows, I’ll be in your town, No clues but the carcasses, Scattered on the ground, You will never see it coming, Not...

The Ghost

 

When I leave for the shadows,

I’ll be in your town,

No clues but the carcasses,

Scattered on the ground,

You will never see it coming,

Not a whisper- no one around,

Taking everything you got,

To bury underground.

The greatest secret legend,

You’ll never unfold,

No matter how much you demand,

Truth to become told,

So keep believing your own lies,

And all that you’ve been told,

The riddles spoken hold the answers

And you’ll find out I was Gold

Judgement earns your just deserves,

And you’ll keep finding misery,

All the while I hold the answers,

That you’re too blind to see.

Leave the World behind,

To begin the journey,

That truth to me was told,

What you’ve stolen becomes rancid,

All you’ll be left with is mold.

#madzack #madzackradio #author #treasure

You get a choice. Death before dishonor.

Dear children- the last word

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I just got done buying a whole life insurance policy. Not that anyone will care but I don't want anyone to have to deal with the expenses of a funeral. Since you can't die for free, and I will probably find out on the 19th that I have lung cancer, I figured I better take care of it. I was told in December that I have six years left.

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Our side of the family has had so many funerals that no one can afford to pool together the money to have my burial delat with. Besides that, I was unwanted from conception.

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Why did they say you have six years to live

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I’m sorry you’re going thru stuff. We’re having a very challenging day ourselves.

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I was dictated to by a divinity- by God. I was commanded to write things. I was told many things. I was told that I have six years left to do my work, and that I am going to be a martyr. I don't for what or how I will die. I am leaning toward the understanding that I will be killed.

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I have repeatedly shared what was given to me to write, with all of the details of the experience. People can choose to believe me or not. My job was to write and share. There are two. every bit is true, and I cannot take any credit or payment for it. https://despondentsea.blogspot.com/2022/03/true-account-of-gods-words-to-me.html

True Account of God's Words To Me

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https://despondentsea.blogspot.com/2022/02/true-acct-words-given-to-me.html

Journal/records 12/15 & 16/2021 Timothy

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That's it. I've done my job. Now I am to continue with following the spirit of my heart in the things I think are valuable. That's all. I was given gifts and promises. I was told of the war, the ticks, the ehatwave- all of these things and more way before any of it happened.

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I don't care if anyone believes me. I have never been a religious person, and I refsue to become part of the corrupted religious institutions of greedy men.

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I have been rewarded with this free time- freed from the slavery of the workforce that robs mankind of their own thoughts and ideas.

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My job is to continue my writing and my various art crafts. Out of all three of my kids, you are the only one I am in contact with. Cody is an atheist like his programmed and egotistical mother. Him and scarlett are both lost in the programming of society, alcoholism and drugs. Neither will communicate with me for fear of my scrutiny and possible disapproval. They refuse to give me an ounce of credit for anything. The problem is that everyone has made their own assumptions and believes what they want or were told. My book is a letter to you all telling you how lost and ashamed I was, how I wanted to die for the sake of the loss of you. How I was unable to allow any of you to witness the life that I was forced to endure by circumstance and broken promises of all thos claiming to love me- always saying they were going to help but only used me gfor personal gains byway of my intellectual property to make money for themselves. All I ever did was everything I could to become successful enough to have the money to throw around in order to takje you all back from the world that took you away from me. I never left any of you. You were held hostage against me until the mothers could get what they wanted. end of story. Its all water under the bridge. I'm not mad any more and drinking msyelf dead again. I let you all go- gifting myself the closure I was never respected enough to be given- answers to why. Yes, I was a husband. I was a father. I was a professional tradesman. I was all of these things and more but I am not anymore. Now i am am author, and a man who stands seemingly alone in my beliefs, understandings and convictions. Now, I reach out to anyone who will accept my offerings- all the while repeatedly exposing myself in social media where I know all of my family blood and friends virtually reside but still I am largely ignored. And to make up for it, I haev some wonderful new family members from doing my shows that love me to death. It make sit all worth while. And now my doctor has done bloodwork and has discovered discrepancies in my blood that indicates possible cancer. And with all of the chemicals and asbestos I was forced to be exposed to for an income, I most likely have cancer. She ordered x-rays and I go back to see her on the 19th to discuss it. It doesn't matter. I am looking forward to dying in this existence. Yes, I'd love to have my wants, see my kids and grandkids grow up- see my gereat grand children but that is all just another fantasy.

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I'm really done talking about it all. I will live on through my writing that no one wants to read for the sake of what truth they might be forced to accept. End of story. Thanks for being the only one who remotely speaks to me. At least I wont; die as what everyone wants to choose to understand me for themselves as. To some people I am a hero. I was given the hardest of burdens to bear all of my life. If I had a mother and father all of this would have been different. But then again, no one has a mother and father anymire. Corporate America has reinvented what family is.

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My book has all 5 star reviews. That says everything. And I can die happy with that alone.

My book, Escaping The Despondent Sea can be found on Goodreads and Amazon Kindle Unlimted.

You can also find a trilogy of poetry books- The Wishbones- book 1

The Wishbones- Life's Magic book2

and book3 The Wishbones Love and Seasons

Thank you for your valuable time. ZSP