Leftovers Blues

 Spontaneous music performance from Captain Mad Zack! #leftoversblues Song intro starts @ 23:44

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The painting of understanding

The painting lacked strokes that spoke words in their silence- a chance to meet and share...

Did the Elvis movie make you think that must’ve been what Brittney Spears went thru between her father and managers and why she was in Vegas all those years?

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  Not sure what you mean. My mother rejected me, I in turn rejected her by refusing her milk, throwing the bottle from my crib. Since she was close with her family- everyone lived near each other so that there was a lot of what she always called "visiting".
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   I was beaten into silence and desired attention. I acknowledged that gathering around the tv was the key- so I desired to play music and perform. I perform with every single thing i do- doesn't matter, dishes or acting or building a house. I always worked at becoming a better performer in every single way, learning massage even. As a very small child I wanted to be famous so i would be loved. Even becoming an alcoholic with the psychological influence of movies characterizing a town alcoholic that cleans up to come to the rescue, for instance. I've been studying myself as all should of themselves... to cohabitate in a social setting and not have disharmony- to achieve happiness and contentedness. 

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• That is what I mean about the garden of life, and how all who benefit from it help equally in earnest of the heart- to look past the monotony and struggle, to always see the fruit throughout the entire cycle of the process- like the seasons of the years for instance. And even in the tiniest and most delicate existence of the Monarch butterfly outright shouting at us that there is more life- dying six times during the entire migration process. Secrets revealed in plain and simple truth. I wanted to become, and I have been emerging more and more. Following my spirit and having faith in the journey. I have achieved an amount of healing that has enabled me to just BE a star twinkling among the infinity of space- somewhere new and unseen by mortal men, with God. The eternal spark of electricity of all beginning and being.
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Gambling On Love

Gambling On Love 

when opinions become from poisoned soil,

the fruit, it has no worth,

the garden of life needs replanting

with a new message from a new church.

well it's a max bet in the morning baby,

whistle blow and call at noon,

an I love you without a warnin'

we'll be making love real soon.

So go ahead, put in a nickel,

pull that handle love star fool,

a sure thing is a jackpot,

when that weight and measure booms.

It's planting seeds fresh in the morning,

making love- day is brand new,

dance in the evening by the fire,

I just love the me and you,

It's a gambler's dream with all the riches,

spilling out that pot for two,

put in a nickel- that morning hug and kiss

The garden is the jackpot so,

keep bettin'- dream and drool.

Journal entry 9/9/2022

 The pursuit of the determined heart is a fire that cannot be extinguished or surprised,

Just say that something cannot be done and I will do magic before your malicious and negative eyes,

Moving mountains is not a challenge when you keep a company that believes in your mind,

#thegardenoflife has been poisoned with the vanity fair and the lies.

#madzack #madzackradio #mentalhealthsupport #addictionrecovery #relationshipcoach #Author #thecarnivaloflife

Today is the day I go back to the dentist. The rest of my teeth are being pulled, and then I leave with healing dentures! In about 8 months I will receive the final pair.

I told Julie, last night while watching Elvis- the movie, that I was going to have a couple of them plated in gold so when I smiled you could see a flash of them among my molars. She thought I was serious, and I'm not sure I was joking! lol

For years, I battled with my teeth. When eating, they would sometimes fracture and break. Taking advantage of the jails, I would occasionally have them removed as needed but three years ago I did get to a dental clinic. They were removing them one at a time!

And then Covid happened, interrupting my care. For the next two years I waited.

In the spring, we moved to Toledo where we now reside. And after getting settled in and adjusted to the new environment, I made the much needed calls for a new doctor and a dentist. It's almost been four months but I am established now, with an appointment this morning at 10:00 am. It's 8:53 am at the moment.

Now I am having my coffee and chain smoking while reviewing some of my content and sharing posts. At the moment I am about to shower and beautify myself for the day, and put on a nice outfit!

when opinions become from poisoned soil,

the fruit, it has no worth,

the garden of life needs replanting

with a new message from a new church.

well it's a max bet in the morning baby,

whistle blowing call at noon,

an I love you without a warnin'

we'll be making love real soon.

So go ahead, put in a nickle,

pull that handle like a fool,

a sure thing is a jackpot,

when that weight and measure booms.

It's plantin seeds fresh in the morning,

making love- day is brand new,

dance in the evening by the fire,

I just love the me and you,

It's a gambler's dream with all the riches,

spilling out that pot for two,

If you don't put in a nickle,

with that morning hug and kiss

The garden is the jackpot so keep on bettin' dream and drool.

Banned books.

 I have also read all of these books, some more than once. Most recently, I purchased 1984. And if you believe in numerology or not- 1984 = AIHD! This understanding or discovery was made on the 16th of December after having my experience with a divinity on the 15th. It genuinely filled me with the "fear of God" and erased all doubt about continuing life of some sort after the physical death on this plane of existence. The Monarch butterfly is all of the evidence you need to support life after death- dying and and being reborn six times on it's journey. We are living and earning our just deserves in this life. We are always being tested- the dream world is a real place where we are taken to other worlds and often tested for our true nature. We have the power of choice even in our sleep. There is something far greater at hand, and while man destroys the Earth the joke is on Man- always striving to live more out of selfishness and fear of death. There are other worlds that cannot be reached any other way but through death. The gift awaits those who've earned it. And also misery beyond understanding for those who find out about what they will be denyed- dying forever, to never have the gift of everlasting life in the ethereal plane.

Going Home

                                                       Happy Heavenly Birthday, Danimal.

 I have read both old and new testaments cover to cover twice in the past. I started studying again two weeks before x-mas when I had a communication with a divinity on the 15th of December when I was given many things to scribe- and informed that I have six years. I just got done with Job, and now I am at Psalms which I have been reading a bit of here and there as I read through the rest of the bible. The way I look at it, I was told and shown many things before they happened. Visions of the war in November. In march I was shown the tick problem as well as the heatwave- though I didn't understand what I was being shown entirely. All of these things came to fruition which validates my gifts and motivates me on my path to continue my mission, although I am not sure what my mission is aside from following my heart. I was told that I will be a martyr, and I was told that they would come for me to lock me up. And it happened. They stuck me in a psych ward when I broke down and prayed out loud in the observation room. At the psychiatrics hospital I was treated very rudely and have legitamate lawsuits to pursue, starting with the hospital. They insisted that I am schizophrenic- in light of my claims against Kroger for consumer fraud- and my investigation and statements about Nielsen's Media Group/Nielsen's Ratings and The MRC- media ratings council. This is all very serious and I continue pursuing these things. And having closure, I cannot wait to die in this life. I have seen and endured enough.

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The Garden of Life- poetry

 Poetry is unending just as numbers- oh, and pi.

#thegardenoflife needs replanting,

all those solitary sighs-

Work is really playtime

and prison when you're alone,

Windows are worn out from staring,

no carrier pigeons or telephone,

The Dinner table in the attic,

like a dog without a bone-

Winter wood unchopped; still growing

love's in the garbage where it was thrown.

Seeds of animosity are spouting

where good things are supposed to grow.

Poetry is unending- help make the garden grow.

ZSP (i just wrote this)

Rainy Days

Rainy Days

 Remember when you worked day and night on your land- your farm,

always battling the heat and that sting in your eyes from the salt in your sweat?

All day long you prayed for rain, hoping for that day to rest and play.

Just like Easter or Merry Christmas day- scrambling children always near and gay-

Sewing up tatters while sparks and flames display-

near the hearth in the rocker that you made one day.

A chance to oil up the arms near a candles flame-

These days and those days are not the same.

No one knows about a rainy day-

complaining of the rain drops that are in their way.