Love

The thing about life as a person who has been abused... it's hard. You want to belong to someone so bad, You want to have someone to hold, you want to have someone to love you. But the thing that you want most of all is to have that person be sexually strong with you- a true partner. A confidant that you can be unabashed with. It's so important. It's important but seems so selfish. I can't help it but if it is selfish.... well I am sorry. Sex is a necessary thing for me. I need to have it to feel whole. I need to have it to feel complete. I need it to feel human and to live. It is a HUGE hunger within
 me. Everything about it is a drive that I can't help but to chase down.
I want a woman to touch. I want to put my hands on her and feel the heat from her body and for her to feel the heat from my hands radiating through her. I get so turned on by touching my woman- by rubbing her and massaging her skin. But mostly, I get turned on by someone loving me back in life.